Tuesday, December 18, 2012


Today I woke up with alot on my mind. This close to Christmas and the New Year I always get very introspective.

This time last year I was moving into a new apartment. Had been on a new job for about two months. And had met a great guy. Now a year later I still really havent gotten unpacked in my apartment, the job is good however I am also looking for an outlet for what I have been called to do... which is help people. And the great guy and I, no long speak. And that hurts but thats life right?

So in the wake of the craziness of this world. The loss of the people in Sandy Hook, CT, the superstorm on the East Coast, the blantant disrespect for President Obama, the senseless death of Trayvon Martin and Jordan Davis, the current 11 year war, the overt racism that still remains in this country and the apparent disregard for life...but with all that... God is still in charge.

Me and God are the only constants in all this strife. Without my faith in Him, I do not believe that I would still be here. I am well aware that I am blessed beyond measure. I have things that most are struggling to either get, achieve, or maintain. He has blessed me and because of that I will spend 2013 blessings others and walking the path that God has laid out for me. In retrospect I have become apart of the world and this has stifled my spirit. The Lord said, "You can be IN the world but not OF the world" (paraphrased John 15:17-19). I have allowed my Church family to become relative strangers and I miss that connection. I have allowed my interests to become those of others and that is not benefiting my growth at all. Because of this I am sometimes overcome by a sense of loss and lostness (yeah I made up a word, what?)

I am looking foward to 2013 and pray the Lord allows me to see it, make the necessary changes in my life, find and hold on to the happiness that is in store for me. I pray for the strength to step outside of my comfort zone and take some real chances. Connect with my family and friends. I look forward to making 2013 my year of Renewal.

NANA WISDOM: Creating and Maintaining a relationship with God allows all your other relationship to blossom.

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